“Not in my Feelings”

I accept not in my feelings – but with my will, the Will of God. I accept His will – not only for time but for eternity. + Mother Teresa, Letter dated August 1,1964

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Turtle Check-In

Time for another check-in. How am I doing:  PHYSICALLY?  I am feeling quite good today. The recovery from my knee surgery is going very smoothly. I am able to get up and move about without any serious pain. I have even been up and down the stairs. So I am very grateful for where I [...]

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Turtle Check-In

Well, it’s time to take what I’ve learned over the past several days and put it into practice. Let’s see if I can figure out my feelings and do a check-in.  FEELINGS Sadness, fear, anxiety, hope, gratefulness ISSUES Keeping up with work load and re-connecting with Beth NEEDS I need to surrender all to Christ [...]

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Feelings & Turtle Steps

Internally, I made a vow, “Never cry again.” I didn’t realize it at the time but my dad had reached into my soul and taken my cry-box out and stomped on it. + Bob Reehm I read an excellent article by Bob Reehm today over on the Breaking Free blog:  “Tactics to Get Pure and [...]

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Turtle Check-In

It’s time for a check-in on feelings and life: FEELINGS: Today I feel lonely, anxious, and grateful. ISSUES: Continued pain in my knee, focusing at work, and setting time aside for prayer. NEEDS: I am feeling the need for affirmation and I also have a great need to more fully surrender to Christ. CHECK-IN: I [...]

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Reflecting Turtle: Coasting

FEELINGS: Today I feel anxious, ambivalent, worried, grateful, lonely. ISSUES: Issues for me today are focusing on family and trying not to isolate. NEEDS: I need to surrender myself to God (and mean it). CHECK-IN: It has been a clean week, but I also feel that I have been just coasting.  I have fallen out [...]

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Reflecting on a Turtle Getaway

A WEEKEND IN SOUTH DAKOTA The Turtle has been away. The Turtle was out of town for three days. The Turtle was in South Dakota. The Turtle was not alone … I had a chance this past weekend to take my two children from my first marriage and go to Watertown, South Dakota for a [...]

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The Man Song – Don’t Let it Show

Even if you feel you’ve got nothing to hide Keep it inside of you Don’t give in Don’t tell them anything Don’t let it Don’t let it show – Alan Parsons Project, “Don’t Let it Show” (I, Robot)

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Turtle Pulse-Check (9/10)

Today this turtle feels somewhat adrift.  It has been over two weeks since I last met with the Purity Platoon and I am feeling a little disconnected from the Battle.  I feel a little lonely and a little isolated.  I had forgotten how important the element of fellowship is to maintaining a healthy struggle for [...]

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The Battle: Work as a Team, Show Your Emotions

We become part of a team in this program. That’s why all the Steps are written with the word we rather than I. We cannot fully surrender to renewal simply by reading about it, hearing about it, or thinking about it. We become participants, members, and peers. We go to meetings and express the details [...]

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